Archive for March, 2010

The Wait

This year as seriously had it’s share of ups and downs. On the upside, I found out about Cochlear Implants (CI). In that void of depression last year, something smacked me on the head (I tend to think it might have been God) and I started looking at CI. See, there had been a serious prejudice against CI in my family. In fact, no one related to me (and remember that my loss is hereditary) had ever had CI done.

But looking into it was a big thing for me. It was unprecedented in my family, and I’m not typically the daredevil do-everything-first type of girl. So I looked into it. And what I found was astounding. What I hear right now with hearing aids are only syllables, even tones when someone is speaking to me, and very loud noises like door slams, loud clapping, and similar things. Basically what my aids do is help me to lipread better. That’s it. But CI? I would go from abut a 90% hearing loss to about 20%.

What’s the difference? To me, it would be giving me back my independence, hereby giving me my world back. I could make my own phone calls, order my own food at a restaurant, lay in bed at night and discuss the day with my husband, talk while I’m driving, and so so much more. There wouldn’t be this constant fear of talking to people.

But as of now, I’m waiting waiting waiting. Last year I had no insurance, and if you’ve ever looked at buying health insurance when you have so much as a sniffle, you know what I mean when I say I was turned down for trying to buy it. So last July I applied to a government program, DARS (Department of Assistive Rehabilitative Services), that is supposed to help the Deaf/Hearing Impaired find a job or assist them with devices/technology/surgery etc to help them find a job.

So of course I jumped on the bandwagon, but again, if you’ve ever used any type of government assistance you know that they’re not known for speed. So I’m waiting waiting waiting. One day I’m hoping for that green light that will change my life completely.