Archive for August, 2010

Music to my ears

There are a lot of big things I’ve already mentioned that I miss hearing, but music is one of the non-essentials that I crave. I’ve already got plans to purchase my very first iPod as soon as my CI surgery is complete and my processor turned on. Granted, it will probably be several months, possibly a full year, before I can really appreciate the music and define what I’m hearing. But it certainly doesn’t mean I won’t try WAY before that! All I can think about lately is which songs I’ll download first. SO hard to pick!!

Think about it. If you were stranded on a deserted island with no electronic device near, which song would you listen to first after being rescued? I have no idea which song for me, but I’ve already started compiling my list of songs I’ll definitely add. Some of them I love, some have sentimental reasons behind them, others have been mentioned over the past, and I just really want to hear them again. SO CAN’T WAIT!!!

Please be warned that when reading the list, you’ll find a very large majority from the 90’s. Once we hit the turn of the century, it was super difficult for me to pick out melody unless I’d heard them for a long while. Keep that in mind when you’re wondering why my taste is lacking for music from the past decade. Ha!

Collide, Howie Day
Came to My Rescue, Hillsong United
Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen
I Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing, Aerosmith
Iris, GooGoo Dolls
When She Loved Me, Sarah McLachlan
Let’s Talk About Love, Celine Dion
Worlds Apart, Jars of Clay
Daydream Believer, The Monkees
One Headlight, The Wallflowers
It Is You, Newsboys
You Never Let Me Go, Darlene Zschech
I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles), The Proclaimers
As Long As You Love Me, Backstreet Boys (I know it’s embarrassing, but I just had to add it)
I Will Always Love You, Whitney Houston
All For You, Sister Hazel
She Will Be Loved, Maroon 5
Time of Your Life, Green Day
It’s All Been Done, BareNaked Ladies
I Hope You Dance, Lee Ann Womack
My Valentine, Martina McBride
Beauty And The Beast, performed by Celine Dion and Peabo Bryson
And All That Jazz, Chicago Soundtrack

There’s so many more, and the list could go on forever, but I’m sure you get the drift. Oldies songs, Disney songs, 90’s songs, Christian worship songs, and soundtracks…. Music is really something that defines us whether we realize it or not.

Oh yeah, and the top two songs I don’t want to hear? That would include the song that made Meredith Brooks popular (you know which one), and the one by Chumbawamba. Seriously I don’t think the music world would miss those songs much. But that’s just my opinion.

But won’t it be nice actually being able to make that choice? To listen to music I love or turn it off when a song I don’t agree with or just don’t like begins playing… Oh the life!

And the wait is over.

Ok, so it’s been nearly a century in blogosphere time since I’ve been here, but better late than never, right? Or so I like to think anyway.

My Cochlear implant surgery is scheduled for September 13th, ironically enough my birthday. A month or so later the implant will be activated. I think I’m excited and terrified all rolled into one. I’m not terrified of the surgery, nothing like that. I do admit that going under the knife for any period of time is a little intimidating, but I’ve got confidence in my doctor to do an awesome job, meaning there are no worries there.

But as weird as it is, I’m relishing every single moment left of my deafness. Crazy weird, yes, but here’s the thing. I know that the surgery will push me from about a 80-90% hearing loss, so somewhere around a 20% hearing loss. I’ll be able to hear my kids laugh, play, scream, and talk, and I’ll be able to lay in bed at night and talk to my husband about all the things that married couples worry about. But the one thing I don’t want to ever forget is how incredibly truly blessed I am. I’ve spent my whole adulthood (all 10 years of it, HA!) praying and believing for some sort of cure or end to this crazy hard-to-deal-with disability, and now that I’ve found it, now that it’s really happening, I want to remember forever where I’ve come from. Sure I’ll still be able to turn my processor off and hear nothingness, but that won’t send me back in time to the constant battle with depression, the tears of desperation to hear simple things, or the anguish of not hearing my children’s cries. And although I will never want to go backward, I don’t want to forget for a single moment of how thankful I am for God and every single one of my family members who have helped me through this time and again.

The blogs I wrote before now were a reminder for me. I’ll print them, file them, and store them forever so I can look back in case I forget. So many times in life it’s so easy to look at all this stuff we deal with and wonder how we got here, instead of looking back and realizing how far we’ve really come. And I’ve promised myself and my God that I won’t forget.

I’m so excited as I look forward to my activation date. I may not blog much until then, but I will get with the program on the days leading up to my surgery. No book deal will come out of it, but I think it will be fun to be able to catalog all the overwhelming number of sounds I learn and deal with on a daily basis.

And it’s just around the corner!