If you’ve been reading here a while, you might notice that today is the two year anniversary of my blog’s existence.
I started the blog two years ago without telling a soul, other than my husband. It was a way for me to vent my frustrations as the deaf person I was. Looking back, it’s only now that I realize how much I was hurting, depressed, and in a way, I feel like this blog saved my sanity. By writing, I was able to express all those pent up emotions that I was too afraid to tell anyone about. By opening up myself, I realized how many others out there faced exactly what I did, and it made me feel like I wasn’t alone out there. For that, I greatly thank my readers. You’ve grounded me in a way that nothing else really could.
While today is a big milestone of two years, it’s a little bittersweet to me. Today I also have to admit that with so much in my life right now, and being the now-stable-and-well-adjusted individual that I am, I just can’t see that I should continue writing the blog on a frequent basis. I’d love to continue writing about the challenges I face as a [technically] deaf person, but the fact of the matter is that I’m finding I can hardly relate to being deaf anymore. Being a little annoyed at my slight hearing loss, yes, but the trauma I felt as a deaf person? That’s not really me anymore.
My life has become….so….. normal.
How many times did I want that two years ago? Every moment of my day.
In a way, I feel like my blog ends here today. I don’t plan on removing it from online. Far from it. If it can continue to help anyone who finds it, then it should stay here indefinitely. But it’s with a heavy heart that I say I won’t actually be continuing to write anymore.
But there’s more!
In 2012 I have big dreams. Big goals. And one of them is right here.
I’ve already started compiling all the blogs written here, and I want to put them in book format. My goal isn’t to see how many readers I can get or how many books I can sell. My biggest goal is to help so many understand what a person faced with hearing loss and cochlear implantation goes through on a daily basis. I’m really tempted to create an e-book for online only, but I do want to make it available to as many who might need it. So maybe a published book. Who knows yet? But I do know that while I won’t be posting in any frequent way here, I will update in a few months on how the book is coming along. Rest assured, I’ll post about the finished product here first!
Published or e-book, I gotta say that if I get a few readers, any and all proceeds will go directly toward my dream of getting a second implant. Oh surround sound, how I miss you! By technical name, I’d love to be a bilateral implant recipient. It sounds just dreamy, doesn’t it?
Now that you know the two goals and dreams most dear to my heart, I want to say a big thank you to those of you who have read my blog. Your reading, comments, and emails of encouragement have meant so much to me during this journey, and I’ve been so happy to have you along for the ride.
It’s the most boring thing to think, but so awesome for me to say, that I hope my life just keeps on being normal.